Multiple Personalities

My sister told me that she doesn't always read my blog because it's so...edited.  She said that she knows that we have problems in our lives, but they never come across in my blog without a gloss of paint.

Well, duh.

For the record, Mandyland isn't a perfect world.  There are days when I want to sell my children.  There are times when I'm ready to shove my husband out the door.  There are frustrations, depression, irritations...life.  Some of the events and issues we deal with would make a really juicy blog.  I'm sure my readership would skyrocket if I brought them up...but I choose not to.

Why?  Well, I have a secret.

First of all, I have another blog.  A LiveJournal account that I've kept since 2004.  It's filled with rants and worries and vents.  It's where I pour out my insecurities, my political viewpoints, my fears, my thoughts on God and religion.  It's where I go when I fight with Chad or argue with my mom.  And it's locked.  There are only a handful of people who can read it and I like it like that.  Those people, most of whom I've never met, know me better than almost anyone.  But...

They will never see us at the grocery store.  They will never attend a family event with us.  They will never go camping with us.  They will never look in our eyes knowing the deepest and darkest corners of Mandyland.  I like that.  It gives me the freedom to post anything without fear of judgement - either for myself or my family.  It's safe. 

For all that I have two blogs, I am, in reality a fairly private person.  I stand in awe of those brave bloggers who let it all hang out.

So...there it is.  In a nutshell. Perhaps, one day, I'll let a little crack of darkness through. Hmmm...maybe I'll make it a running feature:  The Dark Side of Mandyland. 

With Led Zepplin music.

More than likely, I'll continue to write about the positives in my life.  I'll continue to count my blessings because, really, there are so very many.